I haven’t got around to write about the last phase of project “Clash” in Torino in June 2013, which was the last residency of my fully-packed Boost Programme.
so now I try to pull out something from my memory.
The mid- June was a summer breakout after a looooooooong winter, it had a nice expansive feeling, a lot of sitting out in the gardens and parks. (For Stephan, it turned into a mosquito-attack “I hate nature” became his phrase. he put the story of the mosiquitos in the performance as well.) Daniele and his boyfriend Luca showed us the city nicely. We had a good time.
The work was more and more under the pressure of the performance, it had already been like that since the phase in Luxembourg after Munich. We could feel that we were limited and also limiting ourselves from exploring our meeting in depth and expansion, trapped by the idea that we have to perform in front of an audience and we have to make some kind of finished product and a good one… It was great to have the coach Christiane again, this time the last days of the residency. She supported us mentally and helped us to improve our things.
We performed two nights, one in Mosaicodanza a small studio space and one in checki point in the courtyard in the city. both were really nice.
However, I still don’t find a suitable ground how to deal with this dilemma of exploration and research and at the same time an obligation of showing the outcome. sometimes the pressure from the institute (or pressure i put on myself) is too heavy I have to spend time just forcing to create another piece rather than spending time on researching and exploring. In the case of Clash, it was beautiful to have met and worked and spent time together with Daniele and Stephan and Christiane, but it was a pity that we spent a lot of energy building up a piece and not exploring our meeting so much. (we each have a very original ways and talents, if we could spend time more in sharing that…)
I left Torino with nice memories but also the feeling that something is still left to be done… maybe the Clash can continue and we have a chance to accomplish what is left to be done, or maybe we will continue this quest individually and finding the way in our individual pathways.